Quick Update and Look Forward

What a difference a day makes.

Since I last posted, so much has changed. I'm so grateful that I've learned how to embrace my negative feelings, be grateful for them, and focus on the fresh, new desires they birth inside me. In writing that post, I shifted my energy from treading water in my pain to facing the future with gratitude. Within hours, things started changing. My vulnerabilities were addressed by people who initiated the conversations. I don't feel any need to dwell on the mechanics or details of this, only to report that this is what happened.

Today, I find myself even further along that road. I actually feel excitement and enthusiasm for the potential of the future. I'm eager to have fresh work, new experiences, and try out even more new behaviors.

Oh, one last thought about the feeling I could trace back to high school. I think that I had figured out back then how to gauge my energy from the feedback and how to figure out new behaviors to try. It wasn't clean and pure, I still blamed myself for the feedback because I didn't have my power clear in my own heart. But I had already figured out the basic mechanics of transformation. I just wasn't giving myself credit for the great places I was reaching and didn't realize the importance of what I was doing.

I was doing pretty well back then. I can see that today.