Glimpse In A Mirror

I'm Scared

Since Sunday, I've been getting sicker from something that seems eerily similar to my situation 18 months ago. Tonight, I'm feeling light and alert. I'm able to sit in the chair with its soft seat if I lean to one side. For moments, I can actually forget that I'm in pain/discomfort. In those moments I feel myself, fully myself.

I had to cancel my plans for Saturday night. There is no way I can do that now. I'm wondering if I should also cancel Friday night. Perhaps I will tomorrow. I can't see myself getting on a plane next week, either, but that one is a bigger deal to cancel. And if this is something milder than last time, I could possibly make it there.

I've just loaded some program executables onto a CD to load on the laptop. I'm going to work on it on my bed tomorrow. At least I can be working on one of my book ideas, right?

The difference in how I feel now compared to about 6 hours ago is amazing. I feel pretty good, even if it hurts to walk. I'm optimistic. My heart is light. As much as this depends on me, I'm heading for a speedy recovery.

I may have to ask my neighbors for some help tomorrow.