Glimpse In A Mirror

Needing A Break

I slept 14 hours last night, and now that I'm awake, its the first time in more than a week that I haven't been exhausted. The bad news is that I lost a lot of time I should have been working on a client project. I'm still taking it easy this evening, taking a break to watch my favorite TV shows and then I'll be back up here, working until I'm too tired to go on. Same for tomorrow. I have a huge deadline on Monday that I have to make.

Otherwise, I've been watching how different some of my thoughts are these days. I'm much more willing to tell people what I'm thinking, more inclined to make confrontations instead of backing down or just not saying what is on my mind. These are good changes. I'm also tuned back into some realizations that I made several years ago, and I'm starting to pick back up some of the tools and routines that I dropped while John was here. It's like I just remembered that I know more about energy than I've been using, a sort of nice surprise, and I'm ready to start using those skills and information in my daily living.

Just a few minutes ago, for example, I knew that Scott was going to call me. Well, that's not exactly how it played out. I was working, thinking about work, when a new thought interrupted me, a thought about Scott and why he hadn't called me yet. About 60 seconds later, the phone rang and it was Scott. So it's not exactly that I knew Scott was about to call, but when the phone rang, I expected it to be Scott since I had just had a thought about him enter my head. I believe that I was hearing him thinking that he needed to call me.

In my latest tape, the suggestion was made that I start putting out intentions, setting desires in motion, so that when they happen, I can say "I knew that was going to happen just like that..." I really don't spend much energy on filling in what I want to happen in my life. There is no reason why I couldn't just start that now. There are plenty of things that I want, and maybe just the effort I spend invested in seeding the event will speed them towards me, and get me past some logical obstacles that seem to be between me and them. Like the fact that everywhere I drive, I keep seeing cute little apartment complexes. So what if I don't have enough of a down payment saved up for one... why not start putting out now that I will own one? Who knows how it will happen, that part doesn't matter. I just want to own one.