Glimpse In A Mirror

What I Want

While I was driving home from Lowe's tonight, I was thinking about the idea that everyone treats us the way we ask them to treat us, based on how we feel about ourself. That is an enlightening remembrance, considering all of the social conflicts I've been facing lately. I started thinking about my neighbor situation, and realized that I LIKE the idea of a wall between us, because I think it keeps them on their side of the wall, in terms of noise, mostly. As long as they remain quiet, I don't really care why they are quiet. That was an interesting revelation. Of course, there is a way that I can soften my willingness-to-be-bitchy and still intend for them to respect my noise barrier. I just need to adjust my thinking a bit.

Today, Spartacus called about a possible new project, and it makes me laugh to realize what kind of energy I'm putting out. I must really want to make my financial goals this year! I'm sure manifesting the work, and the hourly rates, to make it. So in that area, I'm doing really really good.

What do I want? What do I believe?

I believe that I work with people who respect my contributions to projects. I work with people who recognize my skills and what I produce for them. I work with people who are willing to allow me to determine how to best approach and manage my own process while giving them the products that they desire. I work with people who feel lucky to have found someone with my skills, and who can easily sell my services within their organizations.

I believe that I am the kind of person that others see as a loyal friend. I have people in my life who respect my lifestyle and life choices, and give me the room to explore and discover my own path in life. I have people in my life who enjoy discussing ideas with me, and appreciate the places where we don't agree because those can often provide the most interesting conversations and provide both of us with the most insight into our own lives. I have people in my life who respond to my loyalty with their own loyalty, and don't allow a bit of time to create any separation in our friendship. Even when we are apart for a time, when we return, we pick up where we left off.

I believe that I am creating a lifestyle that supports the best of me. My lifestyle encourages and facilitates my health, well being, prosperity and creativity. My daily life provides me with a balance of good things, and my daily experiences help me to clarify what I like, what I want, and where I want to go next. My lifestyle supports my need for creative solitude, and allows for personal interactions that are meaningful, enjoyable and fun.

I believe that I am becoming more and more of the best I can be. I am courageously seeking out new experiences, new perspectives, and new landscapes that provide me with a growing sense of the diversity and unity of all life. I see the grandness in small details, and see the fine points of the horizon. My heart sings with each experience, even the sad ones, because it understands the importance of contrasts and the balance of experiences that result in the greatest life fulfillment.

I believe that this year is the time that I realize my healthy lifestyle. This year is the year that I expand my financial boundaries in ways that surprise even me. This year is the year that I settle into the realization that I have wonderful people in my life. This year is the year that my business takes off and takes me places I never expected. This year is the year that my first book is published, and I fulfill my lifelong dream of seeing my books on the shelves of bookstores across the country (and on Amazon.com).

This year is the year I look back on when I'm old, and see how the scales tipped towards the future, the critical mass was reached, and I step into the future that I've been dreaming about for my whole life.