What I Should Do

• I should be working.
• I should be happy that I have client work.
• I should be able to shake off this feeling of being out of touch, of being crusty.
• I should be happy all of the time.
• I should be productive all of the time.
• I should sleep at night when I go to bed and not just right before I have to wake up.
• I should be able to figure out the things that bug me.
• I should be further long in my ___________________ (career and life come to mind first).
• I should be able to figure out who is my real friend without getting burnt by a fake one in the process.
• I should have already lost the 30 pounds I want to lose.
  
• I should have more time to do what I want to do.
• I should be able to protect myself from the slings and arrows of idiots and people I don't really trust or like.
• I should be in charge all of the time (of myself).
• I should be able to choose who I like instead of being surprised by my own heart.
• I should have my life better organized.
• I should be on top of the things I'm trying to do.
• I should have already organized my contact list.
• I should have my bookkeeping up to date.
• I should like to do the things I need to do.
• I should have found better friends, and more of them.
• I should have run harder after the things I ignored.
• I should have known what was going to be important to me in this phase of my life sooner.
• I should not make silly mistakes or forget things.
• I should be allowed to cry any time I feel like crying.
• I should be able to snap myself out of this glumness.
• I should have thought to make this list sooner in my life.
• I should let myself get this crap out of me so I can move past it.
• I should let myself cry now.
• I should forgive myself for not being perfect.
• I should be grateful for everything good in my life instead of bitching about the small inconveniences.
• I should appreciate that I can take this time to vent, and that I have a safe place to do it.
• I should stop being so hard on myself.
• I should realize that being honest is the best thing I can do in any moment.
• I should stop trying to manage the parts of me that are wild.
• I should take a break, maybe even a nap.
• I should be amazed at the movement in my heart from this simple exercise.
• I should take a deep breath.
• I should call someone who cares about me.
• I should appreciate that I am alive and that I can feel anything, even crap.
• I should appreciate the people around me who do care about me.
• I should appreciate the impact I do have on people and be grateful I can help someone.
• I should take another deep breath.
• I should stop now.