Butterflies Continue

I've spent more hours working in the last couple of weeks than I normally do. But I'm working on a proposal where I'm the sub to a client of mine, and there is so much work to do. It's going well, and I'm almost having fun. It's not quite fun, not like the fun I had on peak days while editing corporate conference calls. Those days (and the weeks around them) were really FUN for me. I got all excited about them, and enjoyed every bit of it. Mostly.

This is good, but there is something going on in the background that is taking some energy from me. Perhaps if I wasn't working through these background things, I'd be really having fun? Could be.

The background things are pushing me to think bigger, plan bigger, for my company. While I'm working on this proposal, I can almost feel myself stretching into this bigger vision. Things that I know I would normally feel some resistance about (ok, a LOT of resistance about), and growing on me. I don't mind the idea of doing them. In fact, in a lot of ways, I'm starting to almost get excited about the possibility of doing them.

I see what is happening. My mind is expanding so my business can expand.

I'm reaching a point of no turning back. Nope, I've already passed that point. Now that I've planned and thought about this, virtually expanded my business, I can't go back to my small business and my small business world. If this proposal doesn't come through, I will be looking for next one, and the next one.

In December I had butterflies all of the time around the idea of hiring a writer. Today, I've got subteranean butterflies (almost butterflies) around the idea of having several writers working for me on a series of projects.

This is how it happens.

I know this is happening to me. It's wonderful. It's a dream come true. It's the next logical step for me.

I've set a financial goal for this year. It's more than double what I've made any other year. I'm so sure I can reach this goal that I realized tonight I need to schedule an appointment with my accountant so I can be prepared.