At Peace With Confusion

Something is definitely going on with me. I'm not quite myself, and I haven't been for about two weeks, but it is getting more obvious, and perhaps, more painful. I thought I was just having trouble snapping back from being exhausted and burnt out from my project marathon. But that's been a long time ago now. I'm always tired, I continually have bags under my eyes, and I can't seem to sleep more than 3 0r 4 hours at a stretch, no matter what time I go to bed.

This whole week it is impacting my work. Yesterday, I felt so disjointed that I cancelled a conference call with my client because I didn't feel sharp enough to collect the info he was going to give me. I don't feel much sharper today. The puzzle of ideas on my desk today seems unusually challenging, and I think it's me and not the puzzle. I don't seem to be able to rely on myself in the usual way. I'm having to give myself extra time, and make extra notes while I'm working. I can adjust to this. I'm doing my best to observe the confusion and shadow within myself. I know that where there is confusion and shadow, the divine can appear. I'm doing my best to keep moving, and waiting for the divine to show itself.