Glimpse In A Mirror

Where My Head Is

I have worked all the way through the weekend, again. I'm glad I had a big chunk of Friday out of this office and my butt out of this chair, but even that was after putting in a six hour day.

I'm tired, I a bit burnt out, and I'm having a hard time finding that sweet spot, that place where I love my life and my work. After all, I don't work at home, I live at work. But can't I find a better balance of how I spend my time? What is the ideal situation for me at this time, well, after I meet all of these pending (or past) deadlines.

I'm really tired, and so I'm going to be bed. The sun isn't even set yet. I'm hoping to get up about 2 am to resume working. I may be without phone service tomorrow. (It's always something, isn't it?)

My knee has hurt all day long, since I got up this morning. I don't have any idea why, or what is going on. It feels like muscle tightness, a strain through the knee when I sit on it. Of course, smart cookie that I am, I stopped sitting on it right away. I have been massaging my thigh, hoping that will loosen things up. I've learned that knee problems are really hip problems, so I've been doing some triangle pose and some bending from the hips to pull everything loose. And doing Reiki on it. What is the message, little knee? What are you trying to tell me? Talk to me in my sleep tonight, and I'll do whatever I can to help you out.

Great Spirit, I don't feel very connected to my life or my own heart tonight. Show me the way back. Show me how to blink and find myself again. I know it is that simple, it is always that simple. Help me to release the complicated thinking that pushes me away from my own center. Help me to release the resistance, to soften my will and my thoughts and my feelings so I can flow again. I'm ready. I'm willing.