Glimpse In A Mirror

Just Realized This

I came here and pulled up the page, not knowing what I was going to write, but knowing that my heart is full and writing would release my inner thoughts. I glanced at the last entry, and wham! it hit me. Last week, my former friend never said anything like "let's get together" or "let's talk." He has no intention of reconnecting with me. I let what Sangeet said to me influence my opinion of the evening. He made no indication that he wanted to restore things between us.

I'm OK with that... I certainly haven't been wanting to talk with him this week. It feels like he has really been edited out.

Pinch Me

What is this about? Yesterday, through a series of links and jumps through sites, I landed on Launch.com, and ended up locating some recent videos that I either liked, or I liked the song. One of these, Pinch Me, is a song that I really love. So, tonight, I'm playing the video over and over in the background, on a minimized window so I can hear while I'm typing. But I'm playing it over and over and over. I don't own this album -- I don't own any of their albums. I've not really wanted to. But I'm feeling like I want to have this music surrounding me tonight.

I know that sometimes I like to escape into music, slip into it so it fills my head and I can't hear my own mind chatter. Of course, most of the time my mind chatter isn't going... well, what I really mean is that most of the time the voice of the chatter is pretty soft. I think I have yoga and my spiritual explorations to thank for this. I am not mentally driven like I have been in years past. I like the silence. I don't like background voices. Except tonight.

It could be that I'm exhausted from my work schedule the last few days. No mystery there. Even the house tells me that I'm scattered... things are sitting around, not put away, and just generally cluttered up. I was going to pick up tonight, but I'm not in the mood, I'm tired and I'm just not in the mood. Tomorrow I'm going to sleep until I wake up, and then I'll be ready to attack my life again.