Glimpse In A Mirror

The Sadness Is Gone

In reading through my last week or so of entries, it sounds like I'm a wuss who is always whining about something. In truth, it has been a really rough time, partly because I haven't been able to get to the real heart of what is wrong. Thankfully, I have been able to shift my energy out of that slump, and I'm back to feeling "normal" which means that I have plenty of time throughout the day when my heart soars on the wings of outrageous happiness. It's good to be me. I do love my life.

I'll give myself credit for this... I did spend time and energy through this slump to work myself out of it. I used every technique that has ever helped before, and I did have some limited success. The one thing that made the most impact was a statement I heard on the latest Abraham tape I listened to starting on Tuesday. Of course, this tape just happened to have the very idea I needed to hear, and it occured during my drive into the office, exactly when I needed to hear it. Of course. That's the way magical living happens. The idea is simple, but I had never put these things together in quite this way. I have been very successful over the last two years in creating just the lifestyle I want. I've almost eliminated the things I don't like. And here comes this big glob of stuff that I wouldn't choose. But according to the tape, the idea that I've been missing is this: it is easy to get complacent, to get too comfortable in the sameness of living. I need to really welcome the variety of events in my life. It's only in this variety that I get a chance to really clarify what I want. After all, what I want changes, and if I try to eliminate variety from my life, I can't taste the deliciousness of new things, new ideas. I will just keep ruminating on the old stuff until after it is stale.

I actually had many excellent things happen last week, things that are gems at any time. These have been grouted with some muck, however, making it a bit harder to really see their beauty. I've been making connections with people while at the office working, people that could be future clients. I've had the opportunity to share some information with them, and to contribute to their efforts in our short interactions. It was great to see myself as being a valuable resource in their eyes. Just confirmation of my own thoughts about my value. I also managed to shift my energy so fully at a couple of times during the week that I totally changed the way people reacted to me. That was an amazing thing.